I turn 42 in a couple of days time and while it doesn't scare me, it does leave some lingering questions in my mind.

1. Will I be able to keep up with the exercising and dieting?

So far it's been really good. Working from home 100% due to the pandemic has really helped me to squeeze in some exercise and counting calories has helped with keeping most of the bulge at bay. If and when I do return to the office, this is going to be tricky. By the time I get home and fix dinner and spend some family time it's bedtime or tv time or I'm too tired from running around to jump on the spot, Have got to figure this out. Honestly, going back to the office is giving me anxiety and I'm not looking forward to it. 

Anyway, what does turning 42 have to do with exercising and dieting? Everything.

When I hit 40, it felt like the body I knew was divorcing me leaving me with this empty vessel where my muscles once was. It took awhile to understand my body once more and I love the relationship I have with this little lady right now. Food also works differently for me now. Where once I could gobble down a whole pint of ice cream and not even feel it, now it'd just make me feel sick.

2. What do I want to do with my life?

Ok, let's put a pause on this on and come back to it. I don't know. I've never know. I'm not even sure I'm close to knowing.

3. Am I looking forward to growing old?

Strangely yes. Most would say no but I would say yes.

I need to make dinner now. 

I will ponder on question #2 while I stir fry some vege.